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Hope is a funny thing. I don't really think that I would be able to function without it, because otherwise I think it would be so easy to let all the things that have happened in my life get me down.
But at the same time, sometimes I'm scared to hope. Because when you hope. There's always the chance that you're going to get let down, or not get what you want.
I think the question is, do I let myself hope this time?
Sometimes it's worth it.

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Another bit of slackness between posts here, but here I am again back in blogger land.
It's been a busy few weeks! I got that promotion at work, so I've started doing some different stuff at work which is really awesome. I am so proud that I managed to work my arse of an progress in the little career world.
I've also met a boy, who has made my life amazingly good for the past close to a month. I know he doesn't think so but he's really amazing. I am smitten. And I have a good feeling about this. It's kinda strange for me being a 'girlfriend' again, I'm not used to it. But I suppose it's one of those things that will take me a little while to settle into. I'm crazily happy which is so great.
If only I could kick the stupid sicknesses that seem to keep attacking me, throat infection this time which I suspect I may have caught from the boy. Haha.
On a side note, something that happened today has made me think. Do you think it's okay to have subtle 'digs' at people via social networking sites such as facebook/twitter etc?
I'm a bit on the fence with this one since I know that I have somewhat vented about people on this blog before.. I guess it just feels a bit different when someone has the dig at you. Or maybe I'm just being incredibly self indulgent by thinking it's about me? I don't know.
It's made me think about the way that I use my blog that's for sure. I don't really know is there a difference between venting about someone on a blog, and using a tweet or a status update to have a dig at someone? Any thoughts?
Super excited for this weekend, and hoping I get better in time because my boy is taking me to the Novotel in Manly for Saturday night. He won a free night's stay there, and dinner in their restaurant plus breakfast the next morning. It's going to be sooo nice to just relax and spend some time together away from family/housemates/outside distractions. So um.. don't stress if my phone is off on Saturday night. Hehe.
That's about all from me for now, I think sometime in the near future I might make a few photo posts. Stay tuned :)

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I discovered this awesome app that lets me post to my blog from my iPhone. So rad! I'm completely in love with this phone. :)
In other news I'm super excited about tomorrow. But kinda freaking out!


-- Posted from my iPhone

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I'm back from the clutches of an evil stomach virus and i live to tell the tale!
Gave me a little bit of a scare, but I'm feeling 99% better.. Still a bit achey and tired but I will live to see another day!

Things are swimming along nicely at the moment. I'm waiting to hear back from work whether i got this temporary 6 month higher position - they checked my references which is a good sign I suppose.. now the waiting game begins!

Life has been remarkably drama free, I am liking it a lot. Very chilled, mainly just worrying about this silly position. But I think it will always be in my nature to over worry things hehe.
Tomorrow should be interesting with trying to figure out the new bus and train timetables.. I'm hoping that my trip to work will run smoothly without chaos.

Anyway it's really been the best few weeks for new music.
The new albums that I'm enjoying lately include:

Paramore - Brand New Eyes
AFI - Crash Love
Mayday Parade - Anywhere But Here
Brand New - Daisy

Blissblissblissful.
I'm so so excited for Soundwave next year.. Second announcement of bands on Tuesday.
I'm totally praying for either Blink or Fall Out Boy. I would honestly possibly pass out if that happens. Hehe.
Thinking of actually hiring a hotel for the weekend of Soundwave - it will just mean not having to brave public transport and a lot less hassle. There is a hotel about 500 metres from where Soundwave is on.. so I'm thinking stay there Saturday night - get to Eastern Creek nice and early Sunday morning - then crash there Sunday night.

In other news. I desperately want an iphone.
For anyone reading this who may be thinking of getting a new phone.
Don't EVER get a samsung Omnia. Shittiest phone ever - I've had it only a maximum of 6 months probably and it's the glitchiest fucking thing ever. I hateeeee it.

Hopefully optus will approve me for a plan, otherwise I shall have to deal with the glitchyness for awhile. booooo.

Weight loss update: approximately 32ish kilos lost now :D :D

132.

do you miss the way the world was spinning for us?

131.

This week something spectacular happened.
Now bear with me, because it really won't seem that spectacular. But it really is.

I bought a pair of skinny jeans. And they look cute on.

Yes, doesn't seem that important, but.. I haven't had the confidence to wear a pair of tight jeans since I was about seventeen! I'm thrilled. Like super thrilled!! :D

I feel more confident than I have for a looong time.

I'm enjoying my holidays so far, even though I have to go into work on Thursday. Boo. They're doing interviews for a higher position that I applied for. I guess it kinda sucks that I have to go in, but I'm thrilled I got an interview!

And on a side note.. why is it that my friends seem to be way more concerned with my love life than I am? Seriously... leave it.

130.

'The day's planetary configuration is bringing you to the realization that you have only a limited number of ways you can deal with a certain situation. You can either fight your way out, or you can focus on the real reasons why the relationship, or set of relationships seems to be at fault. Don't make a mountain out of a molehill; be realistic about what needs changing...'

I'm not usually one to buy too much into horoscopes, I mainly read them for a bit of fun. But today's one actually seemed to ring true with me at the moment. I've been doing a lot of soul searching lately, and I think that I'm on the right track.
I am trying to keep a clear head, and not get carried away with my usual hating on myself routine. I think that although not many of my friends will admit it to me, that it's really getting old.
I don't want to be one of those people who are constantly negative and all 'poor me'.
I'm better than that, and I want more than to go through life feeling like the world owes me something.
I'm kinda just pottering along at the moment, life isn't all that exciting without all the constant men drama that I seem to create. But... I'm trying to just be okay with that.
I think that I really need to learn how to just.. be.
The trouble is that I really do get bored easily, but I think this time I really need to just push that aside... and not buy back into old habits of unhealthy relationships, just for the sake of a bit of attention.
This weekend, I am going to let loose. Life has been busy the last couple of weeks with lots of stuff to get done so I haven't had much of a chance to go out on the town.
But this weekend - I am going to. And I'm not going to worry about anything, I'm just going to have fun!
I think that I'll get used to this new little path in life eventually, it's just a bit of an adjustment at the moment.
I fall for people too easily, and it's tempting to fall back into that habit again. But I'm determined to remain strong and resist it!
Hm, and for those of you who may be wondering - no, he never called me back.
I threw out his watch on Sunday and it gave me a fuckload of satisfaction doing so.
There's no point wasting my time thinking about people who clearly don't care about me.
I can do better. :]